Wish I was never born

I should suffocate in my mother's womb, die by the boiled soup, drown by athma, killed by the crash.
The existence of me is sin, why am I still here? Where do we go from here
Wish I was never born, never exist in this lifetime, never here to hurt you.
But I wish I'm here to love you.

I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us...
You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing...
Do what's the best for you...Yu
You made me happy.