Magic Hour

We've been waiting for the magic hour to come, it's beautiful but short, hard to capture the moment.

However...even if we missed it, the magic hour will still be there tomorrow, waiting for us.

I don't belong here

五專時由阿寶那聽到這首歌CREEP, 就愛上了他們
懶豬樂團也做了好幾首他們的歌, fake plastic tree, high & dry, blackstar...
鴨子謂青春三部曲
現在不青春了, 還是唱著他們的歌...如果在那個時候, 在生命最光輝的時候逝去好像也不錯
Nirvana的Kurt Cobain, X-Japan的Hide都消散了, 但都留下來許多東西
而我甚麼東西都沒有...所以繼續活下去吧!

Radiohead - Creep
When you were here before, Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel, Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather, In a beautiful world
I wish I was special, You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control
I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice, when I'm not around
You're so fucking special, I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?I don't belong here
She's running out She's running out She run run run run...run... run...
Whatever makes you happy, Whatever you want
You're so fucking special, I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong hereI don't belong here...

Wish I was never born

I should suffocate in my mother's womb, die by the boiled soup, drown by athma, killed by the crash.
The existence of me is sin, why am I still here? Where do we go from here
Wish I was never born, never exist in this lifetime, never here to hurt you.
But I wish I'm here to love you.

I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us...
You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return a single thing...
Do what's the best for you...Yu
You made me happy.

你可以說人話嗎

MAY: 你到底在煩惱些什麼 總有個點
HEX: 是點與線之間的面 很大一塊
MAY: .......... 好抽象
HEX: 點與線們彼此不相干 但是組成了面 就是我的煩惱
MAY: 我不想跟你聊.... 你可以說人話嗎 講那些我聽不懂...

好吧 好像我從以前就這樣了
外星人快把我帶走

重新思考

禮拜一時在北藝大拍了人生第一部16mm短短短片
由於膠捲只有400呎要8個人分，一個人才分到1min左右的長度
雖然說是小作業，只是要試膠捲和DV拍攝的差異
但還是想了個小劇本(最後砍掉很多內容)，準備了演員和道具
感謝同組的導演立達、北村還有女主角淡江暗房的小嫻
(題外話：立達吹氣球的樣子很像卡通人物)

劇情大概是：
高中制服妹要趕去小提琴演奏會表演，好不容易到了會場卻已人去樓空。
她獨自走上台，失去了機會而傷心哭泣，但她拿起了琴開始對無人的會場演奏，
演奏結束後，一名打掃的工友站了起來，激烈的為她鼓掌。

故事的發起是來自自身經歷：
高中時代一次樂團表演，我們"懶豬"最後一團，結束後在台上收器材
此時散場音樂放著夢劇場"Scene from a Memory - The Spirit Carries On"
我和老友團員鴨子拿著吉他開始跟著歌擺動作
剩幾個高中女生在看我們自high，觀眾都已紛紛離去...

但是，此時的我卻是感到非常強烈的存在感，這是我生命中最風光的一刻。

拍攝這部極短篇時，腳色的感覺就像上面這樣，在沒有觀眾的舞台上找到自己存在。
可能都是以個人經歷來寫的故事，之前拍的EXIT5也是一樣的心情
或許會有移情作用，很能認同自己寫的腳色。

這種感覺讓我開始重新思考...這種失去已久的感覺在拍攝時好像找了回來。
讓我想到過去的自己，比現在好像積極多、有想法多了。
想回到過去青澀的感覺，有心跳的感覺。